Dealing with Severe Illness. Review on Dealing with Severe Illness

I will mention below my severe illness, how it affected me and most of all how I dealt with it.

I had a hard time while I was growing up.  I had to deal with unusual habits(strange for the most part).  I was pretty much aloof, never had any friends and I kept my problems all to myself.  I came to a realization when I read a book about my circumstances.  I was suffering from OCD(Obsessive Compulsive Disorder).  It means an anxiety disorder which is potentially disabling condition that can persist throughout a person's life.  The individual who suffers from it becomes trapped in a pattern of repetitive thoughts and behaviors that are senseless and distressing but extremely difficult to overcome.

My habits started small until it got out of hand.  I constantly wash my hands making sure it's clean.  I stay in the bathroom for a long period of time.  It got to the point where my hands was bleeding and very dry and cracked.  I keep opening and closing doors repetitively until I got it right.  I turn the lights on and off until it feels right then I leave it alone.  My thoughts bothered me a lot.  It tells me to do things or else something bad will happen.  It get so annoying that I felt helpless.  Sometimes I get tired of it all and just cry.  I never felt so alone in facing my problem.  I want to reach out and seek help but I don't know how.  It makes me wonder why I suffer and wondering where God is when I need him the most.

My boyfriend knew what was going on so one day he took me to see a psychiatrist.  The psychiatrist recommended that I do some breathing exercises.  It never worked for me in fact my illness was strong that it can't be solved.  It took several years to find a real solution to my problem.  Now I am seeing a psychiatrist that gives me free samples of medications.  Nowadays I am able to cope with my illness.  My problem still exist but no longer worse.  I thank God everyday that I live life without constant agony.